João Medeiros' Blog

This game I’m playing with my mind is very simple – my mind thinks it is stronger than me! It keeps sending me these flashes of memories I would rather not think about and it keeps finding things I rather not know about! Sometimes it takes a break – like a couple of days or even sometimes a whole week  – and then it comes back…

Problem with memory is you store everything in it, good things and bad things! You have no control over what gets stored and where and how! Wouldn’t it be great if we could say: put last year in archive mode! and presto, done.

Today is raining! I’m thinking maybe the rain will wash away these thoughts in my head and that somehow the feelings will follow. Friedrich Nietzsche said once “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger”… I think it’s a load of bullocks but I’ve been saying that shit for years now and still not feeling any stronger!

The truth – at least for myself – is that one only feels stronger when one acknowledges the things which are bad, the things that don’t kill, are best left behind in some remote part of one’s memory where they will remain forever in darkness and completely forgotten!